Why I Doubted My Value and How I Came to Believe in It Again
There was a time I couldn't see the worth I was building
A reflection by Trysen Kaneshige
Not because it wasn’t there but because I was exhausted, in pain, and carrying more than most people could see. After a brain injury, I went through deep healing. Some days, I could barely think clearly. Other days, I’d sit in front of a blank wall or screen and wonder if I’d ever create again. During that time, I questioned everything: Was my art actually helping anyone? Was I charging too much, or too little? Was I just “an artist,” or was I something more? People would say “You’re so talented,” but that didn’t always feel like enough to keep going.
What I didn’t realize back then was: I wasn’t just creating art. I was creating an ecosystem. What I Had to Learn I had to unlearn the idea that my worth was tied only to my productivity. I had to relearn how to value rest. I had to accept that being humble doesn’t mean playing small. What brought me back was: Painting murals that helped kids feel seen Designing with purpose for local businesses Writing stories and creating characters that reflect healing and resilience Being given a proclamation from the Mayor and still doubting if it meant anything But with time, I started to see: This isn’t just a business. It’s a vessel for healing, culture, and creative freedom.
Why It’s Worth $1.2M Even If I’m Still Healing Today, I’ve created: 20+ murals across Kauaʻi and Oʻahu A clothing and merchandise platform Island Guardians original IP with lore, potential licensing, and youth education A healing-first business model rooted in intention A visual and spiritual brand people trust and remember I still have hard days. I still worry sometimes. But now I move forward knowing: My value isn’t just in what I do, it’s in the way I create space, story, and safety for others. That’s why this ecosystem has real value. And why I believe in it now even if I had to walk through the dark to remember.
To You, If You’ve Ever Felt the Same If you’re an artist, a healer, or someone building quietly through pain, I see you. You don’t have to prove your worth to everyone. But you do deserve to honor it. Let this ecosystem be a reminder that: Your healing is not a weakness, it’s part of your magic. Your story matters. And you can build something powerful, even while still finding your way.